I can hear her laughter from the other room. My beautiful daughter. My little princess that I never thought I would have. She's laughing with her brother. I'm sometimes amazed at how close they are. Him, at twelve, a budding adolescent on the verge of teen hood; and she is, at age two just getting to know this world. I remember thinking years ago that I wasn't worthy of having a daughter in my life. I somehow felt that I had failed so badly at being a woman that God didn't trust me with raising another one. I had my two amazing son's that I love with all my heart but what woman doesn't want a little mini her? Outwardly I gave up on my desire for a little girl, but my closest friends knew I still wanted one.
Then it happened. I discovered I was pregnant much to my unplanned chagrin. I worried how the boys would react since she has a different father. I worried about many things. Then 5 months later I was told that my little tenant was a girl and although I still worried, I did it with a dreamy smile. Looking back though I realized that God didn't give her to me because I somehow now "deserved" her, but I was given this little princess to transform me. I have become a new person since she entered my life and she is a shining light in my life and her brothers.
When I think of beauty the only think I can picture in my mind are my children. I may not be the best mother in the world and the kids may not behave all the time, but my children think I'm awesome and that's all I need to make me smile when my shoulders are heavy.
Aaaaand STOP !
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